Sunday, April 5, 2009

Friendships in Chicago.

Chicago is beautiful in its own crowded, dirty way.

On the way back I wished I didn't have to leave. Now that I'm here, I feel relieved to be home.
None of my really close friends went on this trip, so I was hesitant about going. I'm glad I went. It helped me branch out.

It's so interesting to see who bands together under the pressure of the comfortable when they find they're alone.

I got along with a girl I usually avoid for the sake of company. Wild.
I floated from group to group throughout the days.

It's so weird to be among groups of friends all the time, but not belong to one of them.

I've experienced this a few times before, but I've never been mostly okay with it until this trip. It definitely makes me realize how important friendships are. Not belonging to a friend group made me appreciate the little things people did. It made me value the people who didn't know me well, but talked to me anyways.

It made me see that some people will do a lot of things just to have some sort of company. To avoid loneliness. Even if they're sitting in silence.

All this reminds me of two friendships I'm trying to shake. Maybe I shouldn't push them away so easily.....

I'm super tired, so I'd better get to sleep.
Solid.

3 comments:

  1. I feel crummy yet sympathetic. I'm sorry. I really am. I know we're not too close, but if you ever need someone, I'm here. But I also feel sympthetic because sometimes it is the same feeling even amongst the group of friends that you are supposed to know in-and-out. The kind where you feel the repore and smile and half laugh at the jokes, but it is strange because you know that you don't really belong there. My best friend isn't in any of the little "friend circles" I regularly hang out with. Strange, huh?

    ReplyDelete
  2. Is it weird that we all think the same way sometimes?

    I think we should not push away people. The whole Drew-Alicia made me think about it. Things are going to be about as awkward as a popsicle in the Sahara for them, but there isn't a reason for those two to stop being friends. To me, that's just seems like such a waste.

    Chikow.

    ReplyDelete
  3. Did you know that my table has pushed off its third person? First Ashley, then Suzanne, then Katie. Even though there were some issues with the third one, I know it wasn't just issues with her, it was with us. We're very political at our table, and I'm just a bit too naive or oblivious or whatever you want to call it to figure it out right away. I feel guilty. I mean, it's a 25 minute lunch break. Why kill friendship?

    ReplyDelete