Summer Thoughts {part two}

(I can't believe I spent the first half of my summer wishing it was fun. But that's okay because now I'm making up for it.)

To make good use of my free time, I'm volunteering at the Germantown Animal Shelter. It's a small shelter and when I got there I felt like they didn't really need me. I walked a couple dogs and played with some cats.

It's a pretty good stress reliever, surprisingly.

As of next Monday, I'll be taking ballet lessons! I'm really excited about that! I've wanted to start taking lessons again for over a year. I know I'm a little old to be beginning ballet, but this is something I want to do. Sadly, I'll only take four lessons before I go off to college, but supposedly there's a dance studio in Searcy.

I wonder if I'll be kicked out of Harding for taking dance lessons...... :P

I've been hearing about a website called www.formspring.com. I finally checked it out and it's very good for when you're bored. Here's my link:

http://www.formspring.me/SamanthaJayne7

Also, in other web news, I've made a YouTube account! I have three videos uploaded and hopefully more to come. Link:

http://www.youtube.com/user/healthys0ul

While I'm at it, here's my deviantART link:

http://im-a-bird.deviantart.com/

Well, I've finally almost got everything I need for my dorm room! I'm getting so ready for college, but it really hasn't hit me yet that I'm going. Still.

I've changed my mind about my major again, but this time I know it's what I want. I'm going to major in nursing to become a Psychiatric Nurse Practitioner. And I'm minoring in Spanish and hopefully music. I'll be able to:

pay the bills

travel

like what I do

incorporate music therapy

and actually DO something about my patients instead of just listen to them

I understand just listening is sometimes all people need, but it'll give me more satisfaction knowing I can prescribe medicine. Also, I'd be in high demand. I know it'll be hard work, but I'm getting pumped about it!

I think I'll end with asking:

Is there anyone else out there in the blog world?

Thank you and have a nice day.

Summer Thoughts {part one}

I finally realize how important friends are and how much I want them.

If I didn't have my fun group of friends, orientation would have been completely B O R I N G. Luckily, God set me up with amazing people.

: )

Anyway, so I went undeclared, set up a schedule, and am now declaring a major. Yes, I do have to find a way to make things complicated. Since Harding U doesn't have a program for music therapy, I'm majoring in psychology and minoring in music and Spanish. Hopefully that'll set me up for a good future.

Speaking of a good future, I set up my study abroad program. I'm going to Florence, Italy in the fall of 2011!! I'm already really excited about it. On the weekends I could take a train to Switzerland, Spain, or to any of the surrounding areas!

I'm ready for that adventure.

My dad and my brother, Stephen, got back from their boy scout backpacking trip today! They've been gone for 2 weeks, so I'm glad they're finally home. When they were gone I had to sleep with a light on. It's embarrassing... And sometimes I would wake up with a start in the middle of the night like someone in my room woke me up or something like that... It was weird. Maybe I can get some good sleep now.

I feel safe.

I think I'm going to try making my own soap. I bought a book that guides you through the process and it sounds interesting, so why not! It'll be...an experience, I suppose.

I really haven't done a lot this summer, so there really hasn't been that much to blog about. I just had my first set of mildly interesting events happen and my summer's already half over. But the cup is half full, I suppose. The second half should be more eventful.

Peace.

Thoughts about high school and summer.

I can't believe graduation is almost here. I'm so ready to leave!

Yes, I just might be heartless.

I don't really think I'll miss anyone from high school. Sad, I know. I'm just really ready to move on and leave the Harding Academy nonsense behind along with the White Station "youth group".

But that's another story.

Also, I will most likely be avoiding any past Harding Academy students at Harding U. Sorry, but it's just the truth.

But the cup is not half empty!

I think college will be great and I'll finally get a group of friends that I can fit into who don't have ridiculous problems. My roommate is a crazy fun girl I met during Honors Symposium and one of my suitemates is a sweet girl I met during the symposium as well. Sure, I'll be a little sad during graduation and baccalaureate, but I'm not going to cry or anything.

All things end

(thankfully)

I wish I could change the tone of this post so I don't sound cynical, but hey, I guess everyone has their moments.

Anyway,

I'm going to try to make the best of this summer.

I say that every summer and somehow it never works out haha. But seriously, this time I will. I have the most free time this summer than I've ever had in a summer. My parents want me to get a job. I think it'd be interesting, so I think I will. Also, I'll have time to get back into writing, reading, playing the guitar, and just doing things that I've wanted to do. I'm pretty excited about this summer. I have a chance to make my own plans and I'm going to take it.

Peace.

:)

Senior year(?) + college decision(!)

Wow, it's been a looong while since I've last written...

Senior year has flown by so fast! A lot of people who've graduated have told me that, but I didn't really believe them.

I do now.

Almost time for the talent show again!

I'm excited for that. I'm singing My Heart by Paramore. No what I'd originally planned, but it's cool. I wanted to sing You've Changed by Eva Cassidy. It's smooth jazz. But I like My Heart, too. I expect this year won't be quite as amazing of an experience as last year's talent show's.

Ah, good times... :)

School has been....strange..this year. It's been strange for me mainly because of me. I feel like I distanced myself from my friends for the majority of the year. I'm just getting back to realizing they're there... I think I've been putting my focus on the wrong things. I've been happier since I realized this. I know I'm being vague, but I kinda have to be.

Ha. Confusing. Sorry.

Okay, I've finally made my college decision.

I was deciding between UT Chatt or Harding U.

I chose Harding.

I chose it because of the great relationships I made during Honors Symposium. Most of the people that went are going to Harding. I know, I know: I'm going to Harding Academy and now I'm going to Harding University, Mother will always be watching, blah, blah, blah.... Believe me, I've thought about all of that. I used to be repulsed at the thought of going to Harding U. Its close to home, my relatives live there, many people from my class and people who've gone to Harding Academy in the past are going there..... But in the end, after a lot of thinking, I really actually do want to go there. Anyways, if I don't like it I can always transfer.

I'm really excited!!

Everything Happens for a Reason.

Peace.

Summer Trips : )

Wow, I haven't written in a while.. Here I go:

Honors Symposium at Harding University
I went there to get three hours of college credit in English and to check out the campus because I know my parents want me to go there. I was a little nervous because two weeks would be the longest amount of time I've spent away from home. On top of that, I was going to be spending it with fifty complete strangers.

I spent the best two weeks of my life there!

It was so different from all the other experinces I've had from meeting people. They didn't know anything about me, they were so accepting of people, and they were nice and wanted to have fun. Needless to say, I made some really good friends.
I never ever thought I'd want to go to Harding U, but that trip has made me change my mind... I'm not saying I'm set on going there, but now it's one of my top choices. I'm still keeping my options open. My roommate asked me to be her roommate for freshman year at Harding. I just jumped in and said I would. I've got all senior year to think about it, after all.


Cross Country Camp
I always have a good time on this trip, but it was so different because of the relationships I formed during Symposium. Usually, I feel close to everyone, but I realized that my relationships from Symposium are stronger than most of the ones I have at home... Normally, this would be the highlight of my summer, but too many things have changed.


White Station Jr. High Camp
Honestly, I was counting down how many days I had till I could go home. I didn't really want to be there. I'm not too close to my youth group, but I tried to make the most of it. I was a counselor for the first time and that was an interesting experience, to say the least. I had 8th grade girls. Oh, the drama.... Two girls started crying because one girl thought another girl gave her a dirty look. Are you kidding?? It makes me wonder if my drama was ever that stupid. The days came and went and it was finallly time to go home.

A relief..

To leave church camp....

Something's wrong.

Now I leave tomorrow for a cruise. That should be fun! My best friends and cousin, Meredith, is going, so it'll be a PARTY!

I seem somewhat negative in this post, but really I feel like my summer has been awesome. I'm ready for school to start so I can see everyone again. And I'm really excited about SENIOR YEAR!

Take a turn for the better.

Oh, the ebb and flow of life.

It drives me crazy.

So, I lied when I said I was letting everything go.... But maybe this time...
Things have been messed up lately, but this afternoon was da bomb! I've finally let go of all my troubles with the help from a friend I wouldn't've expected.

For now, at least.

I'm just enjoying myself right now.
Its Friday. I've got the whole weekend ahead of me! The whole weekend to be free, make things right, then pretend nothing ever happened.

I love this plan : )

I'll let you know how it turns out.

Solid fo sho.

; )

April 9th-11th

I'm getting up early to write this because I wouldn't have time otherwise.

I was reminded of why I love music so much on Thursday night. : )

Friday=prom

That night/morning was one of the funnest I've experienced in a long time.

I got ready at Claire's house with a couple girls. Two or three hours would be long enough to get ready, right? Nope. It was so chaotic!

When we met up with everyone else to wait for the limo, I noticed there were a lot of people there that I didn't really know.

But I didn't care.

Everyone ate dinner pretty quickly because we were excited about prom. It was like being a little kid again and standing just outside an amusement park.

Everyone went to a gas station and bought an energy drink and chugged it in the limo before we went into prom. I thought it was a good idea to get 5 Hour Energy. Boy, was I wrong. 5 Hour Energy? Try NINE HOUR ENERGY. That thing worked from 9:30PM-6:30AM.

We finally arrived at 9:30. Everyone looked so pretty.

I've never had that much fun with a bunch of people I hardly knew.

After we danced for a while and around 12: 30, we all piled into the limo again and went to Liz's house for an all-nighter. I am proud to say that I'm no longer an all-nighter virgin. As soon as the sun came up around 6 or so, people began to feel the hours wearing on them. Our bodies were so tired, but our minds were alive. Freakin 5 Hour Energy. At 6:30 we ate breakfast and watched the Fairly Odd Parents. Then I went home and slept from 7 to 1.
: )

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This week feels different. In a good way, though. I feel.....happier. I think I'm finally giving up on worrying about all the stuff that's been going on in my life. What certain people do, what they think or say about me, how they look at me.....Drama. I'm sick of having problems with friends who used to be close.

Well, I'm letting it go.