Friendships in Chicago.

Chicago is beautiful in its own crowded, dirty way.

On the way back I wished I didn't have to leave. Now that I'm here, I feel relieved to be home.
None of my really close friends went on this trip, so I was hesitant about going. I'm glad I went. It helped me branch out.

It's so interesting to see who bands together under the pressure of the comfortable when they find they're alone.

I got along with a girl I usually avoid for the sake of company. Wild.
I floated from group to group throughout the days.

It's so weird to be among groups of friends all the time, but not belong to one of them.

I've experienced this a few times before, but I've never been mostly okay with it until this trip. It definitely makes me realize how important friendships are. Not belonging to a friend group made me appreciate the little things people did. It made me value the people who didn't know me well, but talked to me anyways.

It made me see that some people will do a lot of things just to have some sort of company. To avoid loneliness. Even if they're sitting in silence.

All this reminds me of two friendships I'm trying to shake. Maybe I shouldn't push them away so easily.....

I'm super tired, so I'd better get to sleep.

Solid.

I found a Samantha flower! I feel special now.

: )

Description: A porcelian pink flower color and delicate pink and yellow markings are complimented by the rosette plant form. Compact habit.

The flower isn't very popular, though. That's the only information I could find about it.

With my spare time, I decided to do some research on my name.

-Samantha-

English: "listener"

It's from an Aramaic version of Samuel.

The suffix -antha comes from Greek which means "flower".

-antha is derived from Athena.

Samantha is also the name of and electropop song performed by Norwegian singer Margeret Berger

Samantha is the name of a romance blockbuster.

-Elizabeth-

English: "Oath of God"

It's from the Greek name Elisabet which is from the Hebrew name Elisheva meaning "God is my oath", "God is my abundance", or "God's promise".

Spring Break has been fun so far, even though one of my favorite people is skiing in Utah for the break.
I'm visiting colleges Wednesday, Thursday, and possibly Friday. The colleges I'm visiting are:

Auburn

Belhaven

Samford

U of M

I'm looking forward to it.
Hopefully it'll quench my thirst of getting out of town for a little.
Belhaven called me earlier today. I missed it, and when I called back I left a message that consisted of tripping over words, the word "uh", and my giving only my first name.

Brilliant, Samantha.

So....

Whoa!

http://im-a-bird.deviantart.com

Check it out.

Escapism

I wish I had a mystical island I could disappear to.

...I daydream too much.

Ahem. So Spring Break is coming up. My plans=...nothing. Uhm, good.

I want to travel.

See new things.

Experience new places.

Meet new people.

Well, I think what I really want is an a d v e n t u r e.

Because, for right now, I'm not sure I'm satisfied with Easy-Going.

Here's the deal:

I finally got cable back today! I need to catch up on LOST and The Office now.

So...while I disappeared for a short time I moved. It's kinda hard to get used to. I can't wait to get my room fixed up, but the sad things is that I'll only be in it for a year and a half. Oh well.
I've also managed to get sick. Blah.

Play practice is making me tired. Play practice plus sickness doesn't lead to anything pleasant. During school days I'm trying to learn something and to not fall asleep. And sadly, since I'm walking through school in a daze, one of my relationships has diminished slightly. I wish I could make the person understand that I can't constantly be animated and think everything's so exciting when I can hardly think..... Sigh. It's complicated and I don't feel in the mood for ranting right now.

I bought a book from my Spanish teacher, Mr. Shockley. It's a collection of poems by Robert Frost. I'm excited about it!

I've begun to realize my junior year is slipping between my fingers. Everyone told me this would happen. When this year started I thought that's what I wanted. I wanted this year to fly by. Now I'm not so sure.

Well, I took some NyQuil earlier and it's starting to work.

Solid.

An interesting idea.

One day I was reading and stumbled across this:

Miss McCleethy shakes her head thoughtfully.

"True progress can only happen when there is safety first."

"What if safety...is only an illusion?" I say, thinking aloud.

"What if there is no such thing?"

"Then we fall. Chaos," says Miss McCleethy, annoyed with my questions.

"What if that is only the beginning of something new? What if, once we let go, we are freed?"

"Would you take that chance, Miss Doyle?"

----An excerpt from The Sweet Far Thing by Libba Bray

Thoughts?