Hello, Friend

I haven't posted in so long I hardly know what to say. At least, that's the way it feels. So this post'll be random haha. Recently I've just been going through the motions because my best friend is in Europe. It's cliche, but whatever.

Here's me dressed as Misty from Pokemon! That was really fun. The theme was "When I grow up I want to be...."
When I was little I was pretty mad that I didn't get to drop out of school and join Misty, Ash, and Brock in their adventures. I would've chosen Charmander as my first pokemon. :D

My oldest cousin got married tonight!! The first of all us cousins. It makes me wonder how things will change if and when the majority of us get married.
Also, weddings are so much fun! If only I were 21 as well.... :P

My life has changed a lot since I last posted, but I don't know how to convey it. I'm more laid back than I was in high school.
My reputation doesn't matter to me as much anymore. If people hear about what I do, that's fine. I hope they still accept me, but if they don't then it's best we're not friends anyway.
No need for drama, mama :P

I feel like this is the closest I've ever come to truly being myself :). It's a wonderful feeling, but there is a price to pay. More vulnerability, but it's so worth it.
I'm so free.

I'm still a psychology major and I LOVE IT. Music minor.
I'm really looking forward to discovering where my education and relationships will lead me in the future. I have so many opportunities and lots of time.
The confines of American culture no longer hold me back. I don't feel like my life has to follow a particular path or resolve a certain way.
I'm taking MY path. My very own personal one. My life will not follow the expected order.
I'd hate to look back when I'm older and realize my life has followed the predicted sequence of events that were expected of me.
Ultimately, I'm in a happy place.

Peace.

I feel like I'm running downhill and can't stop.

Going and going and going.

Picking up speed.

Tripping over my feet.

And it's so much fun.

So much to do, so little time.

I think I've finally gotten the hang of this whole college thing.

I've had the freedom and opportunity to broaden my horizons and meet new people. And it feels good.

I will admit, I sometimes miss my friends from back home and the way things used to be. But I have to just keep pressing forward.

All in all, I'm very satisfied with things.

I can say with confidence and much happiness that I have found the person I am going to marry.

Three years ago I quit taking voice lessons because the things the teacher was making me do wasn't "me".

Looking like a Barbie,

striving for absolute perfection,

having 3 minutes at most to win someone over and get their vote.

I don't mean to make the first company seem like it made that part of my life miserable. I loved it so much and learned a lot, but so much political stuff was going on and I wasn't where I wanted to be.

To leave was the right decision at that time.

But my passion for performing overpowers all of that.

I miss it so much.

Today, I'm signing up for a different voice company. One that looks much more promising. After about 6 years of rejection and not feeling good enough, I finally quit. But I've grown up a lot in 3 years and it's time to pick up where I left off at a new place. :)

I just want to perform.